Sunday, Jun. 26, 2005 - 6:03 p.m.
I really wish I had a vocabulary adequate to the job of describing how glorious it was to go flying with Thomas this afternoon. We flew low over the city for a bit, then hugged the coast to Gulfport. I can't remember ever having been so much at peace...The world from two thousand feet up is so serene and beautiful... I wanted never to land.
The more time I spend with Thomas, the more priveleged I feel... The only dark cloud on the horizon is the job transfer...Apparently, there is no chance of him staying on here in New Orleans. He'll hear on Tuesday whether or not he gets the job in Houston... If not, he can be sent off anywhere in the world. I hate the thought of a long-distance relationship, but Houston isn't impossibly far away, whereas Nigeria or Brunei would be one bitch of a commute. I can deal with the separation if he's in Houston, knowing I would see him at least once a month, and perhaps at some point be allowed to move out there to be with him. The other possibilities are too much to bear thinking about. Tuesday seems both too far away and much too close...I dread finding out my fate. Either way, I will be bereft and lonely without him. I don't want to lose him....
